I’ve taken a bit of a break from writing these past few months…and honestly, it was needed. I struggled and continue to struggle with discovering what type of posts I want to include on this site. I’ve played mental ping-pong nearly every week since I decided to create this site a few months ago. And truthfully, I still have no idea what the hell I want the theme to be. What I do know is that for the 3 people who may read these posts every 2 weeks or so, these posts will continue to have absolutely no theme. They will continue to be extremely random and likely whatever I have currently going on in my life. Perhaps one day I will decide on a theme, but today is not that day.
I’ve been thinking it would be cool to look back at some of the things I’ve written in my journal the past few years and write those words here. I got the idea to journal after reading Matthew McConaughey’s book, Green Light. I thought it was so cool how he created a book all from old journal entries he had from decades ago. Not only must it have been cool for him to re-live some of those old memories, but how damn cool it must have been to write about them for people to read. To show such vulnarability and courage to share your deepest thoughts and feelings for millions to read is true courage to me. Anyways, on to my post. This entry is from November 22, 2021, the day after my birthday. The real reason I chose to start here is only because it was the first page I turned to, nothing else. Enjoy.
November 22, 2021: “Had an amazing breathing exercise session with Wim Hof tonight. First time and definitely enjoyed it. I surprised myself and was able to hold my breath relatively effortlessly for 90 seconds. I feel much more relaxed after stressing about my skin and work. I WILL overcome and continue my meditation and breathing exercises. All and accept. Embrace uncertainty. You got this.
January 5, 2022: “Breathing mantra’s: In with peace, out with stress. In with relaxation, out with stress. Let it come, let it go, let it flow. I am healing, I am whole”.
January 27, 2022: Mindful Meditation: “My anxieties are telling me to take a break. To focus on me. More mindful meditation. Accept my anxieties and understand they are there to help protect me”.
August 2, 2021: “First session of therapy today. I’m proud of myself for being open and vulnerable. We addressed a lot of stuff in my past, present, and future. It went really well and I’m stoked for more sessions!
What an absolute banger of a day today at Avila for my run. 66 degrees, light breeze, and picturesque blue skies. Something out of a magazine. So blessed to call this home.
Really enjoyed taking the love language quiz with Mandi tonight. We had identical scores! Her and I both appreciate acts of service, words of affirmation and quality time. Seems pretty spot on to me!
Really enjoying my new bike and learning the tricks of the trade. Really enjoying riding it to town, to the park. Hoping driving less helps this climate.
Had a nice chat with Drew tonight. In 2 years, I bet you’re down in LA working with him.
Embrace uncertainty. Expect nothing, accept everything. You got this!